May 2015

STOP BELIEVING IN FEAR
     A man who, after observing himself awhile, finally discovered he liked being afraid, furious, hateful. He wanted the shaking and vibration and the earthquakes and volcanic lava. You all do this because you think it is a necessity. You wanted that explosion. You thought you couldn't live without it.
     This is you reflecting: “Why would I want that at all?” It’s because of your lack of insight into what is truly beautiful – the place that God has prepared for you. You think you have to be somebody. “I am someone who knows what I’m doing.” That’s a lie.
     People do incredibly stupid things spiritually and socially speaking. One of the most stupid and self-destructive things a human being can ever do is to believe in fear, in terror, as something necessary to his survival. You don’t know you do that but you do that. You believe in the necessity of sorrow, of nervous explosions, of pangs of pain. Know that you go through your day believing that you have to have them. I’m telling you, you don’t have to have them. You prove your belief in them by them clinging to you. How many were troubled this morning? You were troubled because you wanted to be worried over your health or snappy toward someone who offended you. You wanted to be insulted! You wanted to be ignored and left out because then you could say, “See I exist. I’m someone who got left out! I’m someone who's not privileged like everyone else.” And out of these attitudes comes evil towards everyone. If you're evil towards yourself, you’re evil towards everyone else.
     The student asked himself, “What if I gave up being jealous or competitive completely?” You don’t even know you’re jealous. That’s the first step. Then he said, “I’m going to stay awake and determine to use spiritual intelligence.” Then he saw he was only 99% scared and 1% part pure knowing.
     The assaults continue to get even worse as you advance because Satan doesn’t want to lose anyone. Exercise: At the moment you feel that terror within, remember there is a false part in you that wanted it and, at that moment, know there’s something wrong with your reactions. Your mistake was in wanting to get a thrill out of it. You’re not supposed to have any reaction at all. You will no longer be terrified. You’re willing to exorcise the darkness inside yourself. And Truth itself will walk with you and you will know you are safe because you are no longer you.

CATCH YOURSELF
       OK, you can do it and remember what I said now, right now, right now: “I am aware of myself talking, the tone of voice, my hands are like this.” That’s an exercise, turning the arrow back, just watching. Maybe I can catch myself in a false gesture, I can catch myself doing false, and I want to catch that, so I'm not identified with it, so I'm not asleep to the physical reaction to it. But at other times, because our minds are made to work in different ways at different times, I will be talking to you, maybe in five minutes from now when I want to drop that exercise and concentrate on something else.