September 2016

BE THROWN BACK ON YOURSELF
     Your suffering must have no one and nothing to turn to. See that you don’t know what to do about anything. Bear the discomfort, a new kind of pain, of not knowing, and refuse to ask anyone else or even talk to them about it. Just go about your day and be interested in doing what you are doing while you are doing it. Keep coming back home. Watch! This is the answer. Stick with it. Dare to trust God to work it out for you.
     It is a good thing for you to be thrown back on yourself, not having anyone, not having anything that you’ve ever depended upon before. Come on now, it’s failed you. Everything has failed you. You’ve tried; you know that. I will guarantee you absolutely that any past method that you have tried to set yourself free of yourself — if they’ve failed in the past, they will fail in the future.
     To be thrown back on yourself and to stay with it, not rushing out and trying to find an answer outside of yourself; to stay with it and go through the experience to suffer in a new way because you are no longer comforting yourself with asking others questions — then something new can happen. Stick with yourself, knowing you don’t know the answers. Self-awakening — a true authentic spiritual life — begins the moment you stick to yourself, refusing to go back to your old ways, inner or outer; but staying with it to see what new experience will come to you. I’ll guarantee you that it will after you’ve gone thru a lot of shaking, a lot of walking in the fog for a long time. If you will absolutely refuse to go back to your old sources, something new will happen to you. And it will be the beginning of a very, very rare experience for human beings and you can be one of them.
     I want you to know that if you go along with this to the very end of your studies, of your self-investigation, that this invisible world where true help comes from will be more real to you than that automobile out there. The rules are just as definite as cooking, as a football game. If you follow the rules you will get the results.
     If you were happy you wouldn’t look forward to anything. You, ladies and gentlemen, are going to have to reach the point where instead of having confidence, instead of trusting anything or anyone, you will have lost trust completely, which is exactly what Truth wants you to do so that it can begin to operate in your life.
     I tell you finally, WAKE UP!