June 2020
YOUR SINGLE GREATEST FEAR
I want you to tell yourself in precise, exact detail how you — with your present mind and thinking and logic and reasoning — how you’re going to give yourself everlasting existence.
What have you got, where’s your power, by what authority have you convinced yourself that your way is not only the right way, but the only way for you? And you don’t need to hear about such things as leaving yourself, and doing the hard work of climbing the mountain, and coming down the other side where there are real diamonds.
On whose authority are you telling yourself that one day all is going to be different — the diamonds are going to come to me?
One more time, I want to catch your mind in a trap. Allow your mind to be caught in this trap, which will shatter the trap, if you do that.
On whose authority are you living correctly? On whose authority do you say you’re going somewhere; that other people are wrong and you are right?
On whose authority do you say this is a vicious and cruel world to me?
On whose authority do you have all this concealed burning hostility that you don’t let other people see because you are justifying it?
Would you like to know the answer to all those questions? The authority of a mind that is filled with nothing but junk. Oh, that last word fits just right. Junk is worthless. Throw it away.
OK, how valuable do you feel to yourself? How strong are you? How in charge are you of yourself at every small or large incident out in the world? I'm asking, who are you counting on to give you something higher than what you are now?
Yes, part of you wants something higher than what you have now. There’s only one way to get it. That one way is to listen to me when I tell you the following:
If you will look up to Heaven and say, “Heaven, I'm not willing to get up from seated on that rock and whining and worried sick; I'm not willing to do that, but I'm willing to have you make me willing.”
Do you know what a breakthrough that would be? See, you sense, you’re dimly aware that you don’t want to be saved. You want to continue to be lost. Make that stronger. Let that glow — the brighter glow inside of you — the fact that you’re your own worst enemy.
You’re always fighting. Why? Don’t forget this. You’re worried over losing yourself. You have no self to lose! You just say you have. You believe you have. Now you listen to what I’m telling you. You’re actually worried sick that someone is going to take away your burning rage. Yes, you are, because that’s a part of the un-you, the false you, the non-you. That’s a part of your old nature that you’re not willing to give up.
There’s so much to go into about this matter of you fearing to lose a value that you never ever had in the first place. Again let me appeal to even elementary logic in you. Your so-called intelligence has failed you miserably, hasn’t it? You’re afraid of losing your intelligence; you don’t have any. Nothing is more stupid than to suffer. If you suffer, you’re stupid, and you’re loving the desolate world.
See, the diamonds in the illustration about the mountain represent eternal riches. And when you get to that side, you have those eternal riches. And because they are on the other side from where you used to be, they last forever.
You’re so afraid you’re not going to go on! I’ve been telling you how to authentically go on, which is to no longer depend on what you call your education or your logic. Throw out all that trash that is keeping you stubborn.
You’re stubborn, aren’t you? “Yeah, nobody can tell me what to do. I can tell them what to do; they’re not going to tell me what to do.”
What a pathetic creature! But don’t feel sorry for him, he’s made his choice. He’s hardened.
You have a chance, and you take it by realizing that your greatest single fear is the fear of non-existence. You never had an existence in the first place.
See through everything that is telling you what is right, and know that it is wrong and don’t be afraid to drop it.
